Feeling Incomplete, Self-doubt

Ever have those days when things seem so complicated? You know, those days when you start to question things you were so confident about just yesterday. Those days when self-doubt rears its head.

  • Am I in the Lord’s will?
  • What should I be doing in my life?
  • Am I in the right job?
  • Am I in the right church?
  • Am I living in the right state?
  • Am I…
  • Am I…
  • Am I…

Before I know it, I end up feeling incomplete and inadequate. If I let myself get too far “in my head,” I find myself questioning All. The. Things.

I know the Lord has equipped me with leadership skills, but am I using them in the right setting/context? I know the Lord has given me a heart for art, but do I really have enough talent? I know the Lord is intimately involved with the direction of my life, but am I really following that direction?

The next thing I know, I have convinced myself I need to pursue other career options, start new hobbies, and explore new opportunities.

Snap out of that self-doubt.

Then it happens.

I envision the Holy Spirit grabbing me by my shoulders and shaking me back to reality as he says, “Don’t you remember, don’t you know that you have experienced the love of Christ. You are complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Go re-reread Ephesians and double underline 3:19.”

May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

Ephesians 3:19, NLT

Of course, my overthinking, self-reflective personality would respond with “Yeah, but…”

And the Holy Spirit would cut straight to the heart with one question, “Isn’t Jesus enough?”

Isn’t Jesus enough?

My completeness in Him is greater than all of my striving, greater than all of my doubts, greater than all of my insecurities.

Is it OK to dream and have passions? Of course! We were created by a creative God. Dreaming is just an example of the creativity that He has given us. The problem is when I allow my dreams and desires to grow bigger than my desire for Jesus.

Let me give you an example. I remember feeling the nudge to start this blog. I felt it would be a great way to grow my relationship with Jesus, share my heart, and worship Him. As I have connected to some writing communities, I have run into bloggers who earn quite a bit of money on their blogs. Naturally, I started dreaming. What would that be like? To monetize? To be an influencer? To have a million readers?

That’s where the tipping point happens. Suddenly, I am no longer adequate. I am no longer meeting the target. I am no longer good enough. I no longer feel like I can live up to the expectations of success and accomplishment. Suddenly, self-doubt enters.

I’m no longer resting in Jesus.

The worship stops where the idolizing starts.

The worship stops where the idolizing starts.

Tyra Harnishfeger

My eyes are off Jesus in those moments and fixed on those who have accomplished “more” and done it “better”. If only I could grow my readers, create better art … if only …

So, I ask again “Isn’t Jesus enough?”

The truthful answer is “yes when my priorities are in line.” When my goals focus on bringing Him glory, He is definitely enough!

I am learning that keeping my priorities straight is essential to feeling complete in Christ.

Prioritizing Jesus

Of course, these words are easier said than done. The demands of the day, the wayward thoughts of insecurity, and the messages of culture are always pressing in. But, as I’ve said before, the answer is simple, even if it’s not easy.

1 – Stay in the Word!

2 – Pray!

3 – Find community among believers!

I love Bible journaling for this reason! It keeps me in the Word. It gives me a creative outlet to focus my prayer, and it gives me a community of believers to worship alongside.

Today, if you have read all these words, I hope you know two things: YOU are complete in Christ, and HE is enough.

I would love to hear from you! How do you prioritize Jesus? How do you keep His Word in front of you, so you do not forget who He says you are?


If you are looking for a community of believers, I’d love to invite you to join me at the Bible Journaling Ministries conference this October for a FREE Bible Journaling Conference about the Armor of God. It will be a great place to connect with other believers and explore God’s Word. The conference is virtual, so you can enjoy it from the comfort of your living room! Join me here!



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